Chapter Four: This is the reason why I hate banging a virgin
Feeling irritated and annoyed, I found myself calling his number.
Stupid Greg!!
“What the hell are you thinking when you—“ I abruptly stopped talking when a familiar chuckle filled my ear.
I gasped. I can recognized this fucking devilish laugh anywhere!
“Devon.” I whispered, eyes widened and jaws dropped.
“Miss me already, wild rose?” Devon asked, probably smirking like a cheshire cat on the other line.
Of all people Greg can hang out with? Bakit si Devon pa!!
Fuck Greg and his stupidity!
“I’m surprised, you made your way into my cousin’s pants. I was right after all. A whore will always be a whore.” He said in his Devon’s way. Devilish and snarky.
Whore? I have never been with any man but him!
Just fucking him!
And I hate to fucking admit this but his words pierced through my heart like a sharp knife.
I heaved a deep sigh, trying to control my emotions. “Careful with your words or I might think you’re jealous.” I replied, trying to sound confident but failed miserably.
Devon laughed slyly. “Jealous? You mean nothing to me.”
I couldn’t believe that all the walls I built for years just crumbled because of him.
Right now, I can’t help but feel so open, vulnerable and unprotected.
Meaning, so weak and pathetic! I thought tauntingly.
“What happened to my baby?” My eyes widened as soon as I voiced out my thoughts!
Ang tanga tanga mo Armie!!!!
My heart was pounding in my chest. I can practically hear it beating. I swallowed down my anxiety and nervousness, biting my lower lip.
Maybe I inhaled too much of that weed shit and now they’re finally kicking in! I reasoned out lamely, trying to justify my odd behaviour.
“Baby?This is the reason why I hate banging a virgin.” Devon snorted on the other line.
I could not help but replay those devilish lines over and over in my head. That was exactly his parting words before as he dropped me like a hot potato.
I clenched my chest really hard, hoping it would help to ease my pain. “Pardon?” I asked, trying to sound casual. “I’m talking about Greg, are we still talking about the same thing?” I added, feigning innocence as my tears started pouring down my face.
Devon didn’t speak for a few minutes, much to my surprise. I was busy biting my palm as hard as I could, trying to silence my grief.
“He’s sleeping. Want me to wake up your new fuck buddy?”
I pounded my chest. “Let him sleep. I need him awake later.” I exclaimed in haste and cut the line bago pa nito marinig yung hikbi ko.
I didn’t dare to wait for his brutal reply. I have my limit.
I stared at my ceiling, thinking what I did wrong to deserve this kind of treatment.
I didn’t do anything but to love and adore him.
I laughed bitterly, tears still pouring down my face.
Maybe I was a murderer in my past life and now It’s time to pay the price of what I’ve done. Sins I didn’t actually commit. Sucks huh?
Banging a virgin?
All my memories keep rushing through me and this time, I took them all in and let myself wallow in misery.
“If you want a peaceful life. Stay away from Justin Devon. He can make your college life a living hell! He’s bad news and you’re such a good girl.”
I chuckled at this warning.
Come on, that was absurd! How could this “Justin Devon” make my college life a living hell?
Besides, what with this good girls always fall in love with a bad boy assumption?
I always find this nonsense assumption, baloney and stupid.
Until my gaze rested upon him.
I was a goner the first time I laid my eyes on him.
In my defence, he showed me nothing but kindness.
Made me think that all the rumors about him were not true.
He let me ride his bike.
He called and texted me.
He dated me.
He treated me like a princess.
He let me sleep on his bed.
So how will I know that all of these are nothing but bullshit and crap?
Kahit sinong magaling na aktor mahihiya sa ginawang pagpapanggap ni Devon!
Devon can put Matthew McConaughey in shame!
And I’m too foolish to believe him.
Too foolish to trust him with my life.
He made me believe that he feels the same way as I do.
He made me believe that I’m his life.
My head gets bigger dahil sa mga atensyon na nakuha ko mula dito. Making me feel I’m invincible!
But as they say, a wolf will always be a wolf.
A bad boy will always be a bad boy!
Soon, after I lost my virginity to him.
He was gone!
No text and calls!
No surprise visits and dates!
Nothing!
And because I’m such a fool! I went after him, grabbing the thin line that maybe, just maybe he’s just too busy.
Busy enough not to call me or even send me a single message.
Because in my heart, there was always a flicker of hope that what Devon and I had are all real.
FLASHBACK:
“You didn’t text back. I just want to make sure if you’re ok.” I exclaimed out of desperation and concern.
“I’m more than fine.” He replied dismissively. He was still not looking in my direction habang busy pa rin to sa iPhone nito.
“You didn’t even send me a message.” I repeated lamely.
And your phone is working. Gusto ko sanang idag-dag dito but there’s a lump stuck on my throat.
I couldn’t find myself to speak more.
Devon finally looked up at me and how I wish he didn’t.
“And you can’t still figure that out?” He asked like I’m the most stupid girl in the world.
I closed my eyes, finding it so hard to breathe.
I choked back a sob and clenched my fist against my chest. “But what about us?” I asked in an audible whisper.
He chuckled and crooked his head. “Us? You have a lively imagination, wild rose! I never knew, you had a tendency to exaggerate things.” He replied, tauntingly.
I couldn’t hear or see anyone but him.
I just stared at him as my tears started pouring down my face. I was clenching my fists the entire time, hoping it will help me to feel anything but pain.
Devon threw me a mocking look. “I should have known, an innocent like you would take this seriously. This is the reason why I hate banging a virgin.” He spit out and turned around, walking away and leaving me broken.
I felt emotionally rooted to the ground as sadness and pain engulfed me entirely.
For being so stupid and trusting. I deserved nothing but agony.
And this is my punishment for falling in love with a bad boy.
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