BIG SHOT #1: RICKY

Big Shot #1: Ricky ❣ Chapter Nineteen ❣

No friends can compete with that

RICKY’S POV

Napadiretso ako sa pagkakaupo nang dumantay sa balikat ko yung ulo ni Rain.

I know that I’m acting like a big wuss right now.

For fvck sake, I’m barely breathing! I’m even darn afraid to make an audible noise, thinking once I did. She’ll come into her senses and put me again in arm’s length. Daig ko pa ang teenager sa inaakto ko. But when you’re with someone who’s extremely special, nasusukat ba yung emosyon sa edad at kasarian?

Damn fvcking not!

But I must admit, there is a part of me that feels guilty for not pushing her away……. for not acting distant.

For being happy and comfortable about this situation.

Dahil alam naman nating lahat na hindi sya akin.

But I didn’t want to waste my chance.

Napatigil ako sa pag iisip nang mas lalong sumiksik yung mukha nito sa leeg ko.

I stiffened and God helped me but I fvcking forgot to breath. Literally.

Ilang minuto din ang nakalipas bago ako nakahinga ulit at bumalik sa normal yung tibok ng puso ko.

Inalis ko yung pagkakatingin ko sa mukha ni Rain.

Because there is no fvcking way I can think straight kung tititigan ko lang yung mukha nito.

Sakto naman na napatingin ako sa direksyon ni Seth.

At ang sira ulo kong pinsan kung makangisi daig pa ang naulol na aso. Panigurado na nakita nito yung naging reaksyon ko kanina.

Napailing nalang ako na naging dahilan para mas lalong lumawak yung pagkakangisi nito.

Seth let out a chuckle. “Wuss.” He coughed and snickered. “Wussy Rick.”

Damn this two-face fvcker! Sarap pingasan yung perpekto nitong pagmumukha! Pero imbis na bote, yung mani nalang sa lamesa yung dinampot ko. I’m about to throw some nuts into his fvcking face when I heard a very familiar voice.

And shit of all fvcking shit!

It was way too familiar!

“Rain?” Ulit nito.

I forced myself not to look at his direction at yung mukha ni Rain ang tinitigan ko.

Inalis agad ni Rain yung pagkakasandig nito sa balikat ko. “Wyatt!” Gulat at may halong guilt na bulalas nito.

Guilt? Dahil sa pagkakasandig nito sa gilid ko?

Guilt? Dahil sa pagiging malapit nito sakin?

Whatever her reason, those guilt in her eyes were like a fvcking punch in the gut.

Mula kay Rain, nilipat ko yung tingin ko kay Wyatt.

Kunot noo na sinuri ko yung buong bulto nito.

He looks so calm and casual na para bang balewala lang dito yung nasaksihan nito.

And that makes me even more mad.

What the fvck is he doing here anyway?

“Hey Wyatt.” Kaswal na bati ni Seth dahilan para mapatigil ako sa matalim kong pagtitig sa mukha ni Wyatt.

Nakangiting tinapik ni Wyatt yung balikat ni Seth. “Hey man.”

“How did you know that we are here?” Seth asked, voicing my own thoughts habang kaswal na kumakain ng pulutuan.

Sa pagtataka ko, hindi agad nakasagot si Wyatt. Nag aalinlangan tong tumingin kay Rain.

Rain cleared her throat nang mapansin nito na lahat kami nakatingin na dito. “I called him.” Halos pabulong na sagot nito. Kung hindi ko lang to katabi, hindi ko to maririnig dahil sa ingay sa paligid at sa hina ng boses nito.

She called him?

But how’s that even possible?

Rain didn’t even touch her phone the whole time I’m around and believe me, everything about her-lahat ng ginawa nito, ultimo expression nito. Hindi pwede na hindi ko mapansin.

“You called him?” Kaswal na ulit ko kahit sobrang gustong gusto ko nang ibato yung platito ng mani sa mukha ni Wyatt.

Rain turned to me. She wore a look of worry and weariness.

Worry….

Stop fooling yourself Ricky! That’s the last thing she’ll feel for you! Tuya ng utak ko.

Tumingin ulit sa direksyon ko si Rain. “Yes. ” Sagot nito.

Tumayo at tumabi to kay Wyatt at grabe yung pagpipigil na ginawa ko wag ko lang tong mahatak paupo ulit sa tabi ko. Once again, I reminded myself that she was supposed to be mine kung hindi lang ako nag gago.

“I called him earlier when I’m just with Seth.”

Tinikom ko nalang yung mga labi ko at tumingin nalang sa kanilang dalawa.

Nakapatong yung braso ni Wyatt sa balikat ni Rain habang nakasandig si Rain dito.

It seems so casual. Yung tipo na sanay na sanay na sila na umakto ng ganito sa isa’t isa. But still, it looks like a fvcking perfect picture.

A picture without me.

Kaya hindi ko maiwasan na hindi mapatiim baga.

Knowing about them is bearable.

But knowing and seeing are two different things.

Damn it!

Sabi na nga ba, in the back of my mind, there’s a nagging feeling that this night is just too good to be true.

And I’m damn fvcking right!

“Mind If I steal my girlfriend away?” Wyatt asked, breaking the awkward silence.

Hear that Ricky? His girlfriend…..not yours…

I cleared my throat and tried damn hard to look impassive. “Of course not.”  I grabbed my glass and turned to them. “You’re the boyfriend after all. No friends can compete with that.”

I gulped my glass in one go and drowned my misery.

After all, there are no better things in this world than alcohol when you’re miserable.

And right now, I’m fvcking damn miserable!

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