CHAPTER 19
Neneng POV
Parang binarena yung ulo ko. Ang sakit sakit! Hindi ako makatayo mula sa higaan ko. Sobrang sakit pa ng mga kamay at braso ko. Wait, Wtf happened?! Napatingin ako sa dalawang kamay ko, and what the fvck, it is chained! Gusto ko sumigaw pero walang boses na lumalabas sa bibig ko.
Sa patuloy na pag-alis ko ng kamay ko sa kadena, mas lalong sumasakit yung dalawang wrist ko. Wala akong maalala! Bakit ganun?!
Bigla nalang bumukas nang napaka-lakas yung pintuan at iniluwa nito ay si Romeo. WHAT THE FVCK IS HE DOING HERE?!
“Gising ka na pala. Here, I cooked your favorite breakfast. Subuan nalang kita, you want?”
Inilihis ko ang direksyon ng ulo ko mula sakanya. Hindi talaga ako makapag-salita! Ano bang nangyayari saakin?!
“Can’t speak? Oh, I’m sorry. Nasobrahan ka ata sa BJ. Don’t you remember?”
What the! Ano?! You mean like, BJ? Shit! Wag mo sabihin na may ginawa na naman siya saakin kagabi? Oh fvck! No Romeo! NO!!
“You want a second time around? I can give you everything.” He pushes me into the bed. Gusto niya akong halikan pero inililihis ko ang ulo ko sakanya. I really can’t scream nor speak and even move my feet because it is also chained. I look like an alive sex toy here.
I can’t help but cry. Yes, I know that I wanted to do this long time ago. I was craving with Patrick, but IT WAS WITH PATRICK not with anyone else. I admit sobra akong nasaktan nung nakita ko sila ni Nica sa canteen nung araw na kakabreak lang namin. I wanted to kill myself for being so stupid! But I guess life really challenged me. Dapat naman talaga babalikan ko si Patrick nung gabi na nakilala ko sa kalsada si Lloyd, yung pinsan niya, pero natakot ako. I want to change Patrick, seriously. I want him to change like Romeo.
Romeo is a tough guy. He is the most strong person I ever met. I wanted his personality for so long. I want Patrick to be like him. The way Romeo looks at me? I want, I WANT THAT. I want the way he teases me, even though I know that before it was a joke. I want the way he bites his lower lip when he is seducing a girl. I want the way he is!
But I was wrong…
He is not the way I think he was.
He slaps me on my right cheek. I guess because I am not responding to his kiss, “Kiss me back!” he shouted. But I’m so weak. I can’t even force my face out of him. Again, he slaps me. “I said, kiss me back!!” he grabs my hair and pulled it upwards. I can feel his manhood inside me. He pulls my hair upward and downward to make my body moves more, so it will result that I am the one giving him a sensation.
My dad died because of me. My baby died because of me. My brothers are no longer accepting me, because of me. What am I now? Is this my karma for leaving Patrick?
If it is, then I’m so sorry.
“Hoy! Kunin mo nga yung wallet ko sa taas. Bilisan mo!”
Halos mapaluhod na ako sa may hagdan dahil sa sakit ng ulo. Wala pa akong tulog mula pa nung isang gabi. Actually, I can’t sleep since the day I was positively pregnant again. Romeo and I were living for almost one month. He locked me in his condo and chained me there. I was his sex slave.
Binuksan ko ang cabinet niya. Naisip ko na baka nakalimutan niya sa bulsa ng pantalon niya last night yung wallet niya. I found out that I’m right. Kinuha ko ito ng biglang may nahulog na picture na nakaipit dito. Pinulot ko ito at laking gulat ko ng makita ko sa litrato si Nica.
“Bakit ba ang tagal–BAKIT KA NANGINGIELAM?!” Hinatak niya ang braso ko at kinaladkad niya ako at tinulak papunta sa kama. “Sino nagsabi sa’yo na pwede mo pakielaman ang gamit ko?! Sinabi ko, kunin mo lang! Wala akong sinabi na galawin mo! Bobo ka ba at di mo maintindihan ang sinabi ko?!” Pinagsasampal niya ako hanggang sa mamula ng todo ang magkabilang pisnge ko. Iyak na ako ng iyak. Wala akong magawa.
“A-anong koneksyon niyo ni N-nica?” pinilit kong ibuka ang bibig ko at tanungin sa kanya.
Hinatak niya ang buhok ko at hinila niya ito hanggang sa mapahiga na ako sa kama, “WALA KANG PAKIELAM! Tandaan mo, ako nalang ang taong tumanggap sayo! Kaya magtino ka! Sa susunod na galawin mo ang gamit ko, hindi lang yan ang aabutin mo! NAIINTINDIHAN MO?!”
Iniwan niya akong parang aso. Wala akong nagawa kundi umiyak nalang ng umiyak. Hindi ko alam kung hinahanap ba ako sa amin pero wala dumadating dito para hanapin ako.
So I guess they all forget about me.
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